I was right

Once again I was right. I just don't think I should put any trust in anyone ever. I just for once wanted things to stay good. And the way they should be. I hate that I was fooled once again. It isn't fair. Life isn't fair I know, but I give so much when will I get something in return. I don't know what else I could do. I just try my hardest to please you.

The weeks

just keep going by so fast. I wish time would slow down a bit. I am so nervous about this all. >_<.
I know I am ready for it all. I just didn't see this happening this soon. I have always wanted this with you. I always knew this would happen. But, I just wish you felt the same way about it too. I wish I had someone to talk to about all this. My mind hurts from keeping it all in. I just want to make you happy. I want us to make you happy. I hope that happens. I hope everything changes after all this. I really do. I wouldn't change anything about you. I just want you to be happy with me. Like I am happy with you. You're my heart, my soul, my everything. You always have been and you always will be.

I am

starting to miss everything more and more. I miss getting cute little kisses. I miss cuddling. I miss you telling me I am beautiful and how you'll never leave me.
Eh.
I just wish that everything would go back to how it should be.

I guess

I should probably just keep my feelings to myself from now on. I just thought friends were supposed to help you with this stuff? Maybe I am wrong. Maybe that's just how I am..
Eh.
Basically I think I just suck.

Can

anything go right?
I just try so hard. And I want you to notice... I want you to feel the same way I feel about you. I just wish that I could finally please you. :(

I just keep

disappointing myself by actually trusting you...
It's sad how much trust I put in you.
And I am starting to realize you deserve none.
I am starting to hate myself because I trust you.