My thoughts

just can not seem to make my life easier. I am tired of my mind straying to bad then thinking about the good. I have no peace of mind ever it seems. Not for long anyways. Maybe I need medication. Maybe I need something. I have no one to talk to ever. And to be honest even if I did have someone to talk to I probably would not share with them anyways for I have a fear of bothering people. Even if they ask me to share to them. I would feel like I am bothering them. Ucks. Maybe I have lost my mind. Maybe I lost my mind a long time ago. That would make sense to me... Heh.
I hate how everything I say is just some pointless rant.

This

feeling is so strong. I can not imagine life without you. And I hope I never have to live without you. I have so much faith in you and it will never end.
I just love you so much. Nothing will ever change that. Just say you'll be mine forever. <3

Everything

seems that it was just in my head again.
And yet, I still feel the same.
Oh lord, am I pathetic?

I just

I can not stop thinking about how much I love you.
I feel slightly pathetic.
I'd do anything for you. (As I have stated in previous blogs.)
But, I just can not believe how overwhelming these feelings are.
I still feel the same about you as I did when I first fell in love with you.
If I wouldn't have messed up it would've been our third year anniversary comming up.
I wish that day still ment something to you.
Buh.
It'd be nice if my thoughts were different. But, honestly this is all I have to blog about.
I don't really care how boring I sound. I really don't.
It's sad how Irely on my blog to get my feelings out rather then talking to an actual human. I just find that incredibly hard now. It's funny how the internet has made it so all contact outside of the computer is akward as fuck.
But, I guess that's all for now.
All for now until I decide to go on another pointless rant.

I guess

this is just how my life is going to be.
I am always going to be insanly in love with you.
Even if you are no longer with me. I will be waiting.
I don't understand why things just can't go back to you not pretending with me.
I feel all your feelings, and I know that they are all there.
I just want you to feel the same way I feel about you again.
I didn't mean to mess up....

Life

I don't know if I should believe that this happiness is real. I want it to be.
I feel like it is.
And I really hope it is.
Everything has felt amazing.
I love you.
I hope you love me.
I just hope it is safe to feel this way.