Time

I wish I could go back and time and change tons of shit. I know you are not supposed to live with regrets. But, I surely do. I wish I could take back what I did to you. I do. I wish you could treat me like you used to. I'd do anything to be your world again. You still look at me the same. But, you are too scared to open up again. I would never do anything to hurt you ever again. I couldn't, I'd rather hurt myself. I just want everything we had back. We are going to be starting a whole new chapter in our life. And I just want you to be happy.

I am

so insecure. I just wish you'd tell me I was beautiful sometimes. I do. I don't always feel this way, but sometimes I just want to hear it from you. I know there is something wrong with me. There is. I don't know. I guess I don't really care what anyone thinks about me besides you.

My mind

is finally at ease. :)
I think I will be able to sleep a lot better at night.

I haven't

been this upset in a couple weeks. I did nothing wrong yet I am treated like I did. I don't even have to do anything or say anything and you freak out on me for no reason.

People

Just tend to suck. They really do. I believe that I have lost al faith in mainly all people. No matter how much trust you put into someone, no matter how much you do for someone they are assholes. It's just plain confusing. I am tired of always seeming like I am a bad guy. I do not do anything wrong. I help. And when I try and take a break from everything, and be happy. Oh yeah, I am a horrible person. I forgot that I am the one friend in the group that isn't supposed to be allowed happiness. So, all the people they are friends with sits there and makes them feel bad for being happy. I hate this, I am happy. Why can't you all just be nice? I am sorry I have spent less time with you all. My life has changed a lot. It's not ever going to be the same. I can't do as much stuff. I can't party. I can't do anything. Accept it. If you love me and care about our friendship you will do just that.