I should be happy right?

Or pretend that I am at least. I mean maybe he's doing this because he know it bothers me? He knows I'd do anything for him right than and there no matter the consequences. I know I should work on getting over him. But I just can't. I love him so much. So much. I love him more than I ever thought was possible to love another human. I love him more than I love myself. I'd die for him. I'd do anything honestly. I just want to be with him more than anything. He makes my world go round. Blah. Help me.