Why is this happening?

Blah. You said you loved me. You said you wanted to be with me. How can feelings like that change withen a night like you claim. How can you throw everything we had away in one fucking day. Why are you doing this to me? I know I did wrong. But, I was going to mend it all. We were going to mend it all. I know that we belong together. I was molded for you, how do you not see it? I try so fucking hard, yet, nothing. Fucks. My heart explodes over and over again each day. I just want to die. I really do. I hate everything because of you. You're all that matters. You really are. Fucks. Why won't you leave my mind? Everything reminds me of you. EVERYTHING. FUCKS. Where'd your heart go? I had it. But, I lost it. Give it back, we'll be happy. I promise. Fucks. Fucks. Fucks. I never knew it was possible to love on person so much. Even when you treat me like shit, I just want you more. Blah blah blah. Everything is wrong without you. You're my center. Blah. Blah.